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Coping with Happiness OR Yeah, sometimes I write poems

There are some days where you can feel the turn of the earth and know exactly where you are in time. The still fullness of life suddenly all around you. Now. Just a moment ago the leaves were small, the stalks short, the flowers buds, everything only promise and then – out of nowhere –Continue reading “Coping with Happiness OR Yeah, sometimes I write poems”

Companion to Lady Autist OR the autistic urge to over-explain

This post is, as stated, a companion to the post Lady Autist. I’d recommend reading them in tandem for context. It has been about a year since I posted anything to my blog. This is for many reasons: new job has been sapping all my creative energy, new job plus full life means not thatContinue reading “Companion to Lady Autist OR the autistic urge to over-explain”

Mediations on “Process,” OR the ratchet of linear time and the clockwork universe

Recently, I started a new job with a vague and fancy title. I am a Process Architect, specifically a Business Process Architect. Now, as titles go, I understand how pompous and jargon-y it is. I have worked in IT and IT-adjacent fields for over 15 years, and I know that the words we use –Continue reading “Mediations on “Process,” OR the ratchet of linear time and the clockwork universe”

Masking Virtuoso Takes the Day Off

My mother was recently visiting our family for a little more than a week. Some friends have said that a week is a “long” visit. Though I understand that this statement is relative, the designation of the visit as “long” is both a gross understatement and completely untrue.  It’s untrue because saying the visit isContinue reading “Masking Virtuoso Takes the Day Off”

Curated: conjuring demand and identity

I love beautiful things. Full stop. When things are not beautiful it hurts a little. I have been known to say to friends, usually when talking about things like interior or fashion design, “if you can make it beautiful, you should.” I live my life in the center of what one would call “refined aesthetics.” Continue reading “Curated: conjuring demand and identity“

#ActuallyAutistic Part 2: Masking, OR “you don’t seem autistic”

Y’all, my exhaustion is exhausted. The internet wants me to think that this is the brain fog of the late pandemic, and it isn’t not that, but it is actually a whole other thing for me personally. And that thing is called “masking.” Masking is the process of learning and implementing the behaviors required byContinue reading “#ActuallyAutistic Part 2: Masking, OR “you don’t seem autistic””

#ActuallyAutistic Part 1: Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month

So…it’s April and that is Autism Awareness month. Perhaps you are aware that autism exists? Success! But actually no, not success because there are a lot of things about being autistic that still suck and very few of them are autism itself, they are mostly trying to exist as autistic in a neurotypical world. ForContinue reading “#ActuallyAutistic Part 1: Autism Awareness/Acceptance Month”

Sonder

In high school, because of mine and my mother’s disgraced retreat from a repossessed mobile home to a rundown apartment complex resultant of her bankruptcy, I had a 45 minute commute to high school in my hand-me-down 1991 Buick Century, Bonnie. I traveled through an affluent suburb, down old state route 421 to my ruralContinue reading “Sonder”